|Female Strength Mural at Mercedes-Benz Stadium|
I have always been a "Let's look at the bright side" kind of person. During difficult situations sometimes you really must search for something positive. Positives can be hard to find and maybe they will not be revealed until a (much) later date. I do believe; however, God can use anything for His good, eventually. God also can provide comfort and grace during a trial to help you get through it. If you welcome Him in, He is with you even if He is silent.
Since I have broken my ankle, it has changed just about everything I do to get around, to do household tasks, forget about running or playing soccer. In the event I have somewhere to go dressed up, nope, no heels either. I love my heels- the higher the better. But COVID-19 canceled my "heel events" anyway.
Showers looked a lot different and stairs, do not get me started on stairs. I feared getting more hurt by going up or down stairs. I stayed in an extra bedroom on our main level and did not go up the stairs for 2 weeks. I slept on an air mattress and used the couch behind it for working. You know when you own a business certain things still need to get done. Employees would be pretty upset if I had not run payroll that week.
I could go on and on about all the things I could not do or how hard it was for me and my amazing husband and son who picked up all the slack. But, I want to focus on the bright sides of this situation. This whole time I have been looking for how God will use my broken ankle and the aftermath to reveal things to me and teach me some life lessons. This has happened for a reason, and I was determined to figure out what the reasons were. This is part of my story now.
|Flowers from two friends|
Love. The biggest bright side of this whole experience has been L O V E. Actually F E E L I N G how loved I am. I have been abundantly blessed by the outpouring of support in so many ways from my family, friends, friends of friends, neighbors and even acquaintances. This is my biggest bright side. To have such amazing people in my life during such a hard time has been overwhelming, in the best way. Our family has an unforgettable gratitude to all of you for your kindness. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!
I have a much bigger appreciation and gratitude for my health, fitness, and mobility. I developed a bigger compassion to those individuals that have mobility restrictions. It is hard to explain, but there are a lot of emotions you have when you are struggling physically. You feel like you are missing out because you cannot participate in certain things.
You can feel the eyes watching you wondering what happened to you or the story behind your situation. That is the most common question I get. The little kids seem to be the most outspoken about their curiosities. Then their parents seem sorry or embarrassed that their kids ask questions or want to touch the medical boot. I did not mind them though, they mean well.
Then I felt almost guilty and an inconvenience for asking for help doing something that would have been easy for me before. I tried to ask in a really nice humble way and then be patient that it may not get done right then. I did not want to not come off as bossy or ungrateful. I tried to use a lot of pleases and thank yous. That was a feeling I put on myself; Kyle and James are wonderful!
We feel very blessed with the things we have but they are not important, because they are just things. It made me evaluate and reflect on what is important in life. What IS important are the people you surround yourself with and the relationships you have in your life. My relationship with God. That is one thing I can never do without in my life.